WOW

okay i have now understood something very very important i am not the 6 year old girl who was left alone to fend for herself in a hostile environment i am not abandoned, i am not rejected, i am not scared i am an adult - i do not see things the way that a 6 year old saw them i understand things differently i accept what the 6 year old has done, i accept what the 6 year old has lived through, i accept that the situation was very difficult for the 6 year old but i am not a 6 year old any more - i know i have gone through it i know i have coped i do not need to be afraid of abandonment and rejection the 6 year old does not have to control everything and grab hold of every little scrap of attention and choke it to death dear 6 year old me - i know it was difficult, i understand why you thought you are abandoned and rejected by the world, now it is time to understand that you were not responsible for this i understand it now and i let you go, i let you be child again, do not worry child - let me be an adult now ...